A friend of mine just had a baby. A little baby girl, 3 days old as I write this.
He’s a great guy with a glorious mustache, and will be a legendary father. I’m a little jealous of the kid, actually.
My own Little Man was born during the run of a show here, where I work, with some of the same people around. So it’s been a bit of walk down memory lane
I remember the crazy, joyful pandemonium of those first few days, when you know you can’t live the life you used to, but haven’t figured out what the new one’s going to look like yet.
I remember the freedom, after nine months of worrying if you’re ready, if you’ll be good enough, if you’ll be able to handle this – the freedom of no longer having the time nor the energy to worry about anything. Except how you’re going change this dirty diaper without getting peed on. Again. The freedom that comes from, to borrow from Jesse The Mind, not having time to bleed.
I remember how disorienting it was to leave for work that first time after he was born. The alien nature of a world not centered around the Little Dude.
I remember leaving for a long day at work, and coming home to find him noticeably bigger. Hours could be measured in inches back then.
And of course, there’s weeping. No reminiscing about fatherhood is complete without weeping. I mean, I wouldn’t be mistaken for Vulcan in even the most heartless of my adolescent years, but I might as well be chopping onions and watching Game of Thrones for all the feels I got. Calling my parents to tell them they had a grandson? Took me three tries to get that out. Somebody comments on my announcement on facebook? Pass the tissue. Country Roads comes on Pandora? Excuse me, there’s something…something in my eye.
These days I get a little verklempt when I run out of espresso beans.
The hours are long and the years are short. It seems like a lifetime ago when this whole drooley, sleepless affair began. It was a lifetime ago, really. My son’s lifetime.
Happy Father’s Day. What a privilege to be a father, what an honor. Where’s my coffee?